Yes, I lost the real estate tax bill, the quarterly tax bills and the handset to the phone. I swallowed my pride and went to the county treasurers office to ask for copies. As I sat down in the chair the alarm went off. I explained to the clerk I have seizures as I reached of my earplugs and my medical bracelet. She said let me get you out as soon as possible before it goes off again, there is a glitch in the system and it has been doing that all morning. The headache and panic was already starting as I reached for my ear plugs first. She asked my last name confirmed my address I think because I just wanted to get out by this time, and before I knew she had my copies.
You never know when you walk into a building how the environment will affect you, that is the downside of a head injury, I don't think you ever completely heal I think we just learn to cope. But, sometimes things like this catch you off guard and you have no control I did what I could, got the information I needed and I will now have to lay down and try to reduce my headache for the rest of the afternoon.
It's okay, you do the best you can, and if you have an understanding family like mine, you will make it through this day. Every day is a different day and today I have to make it through this challenge.
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Still mixing up my medicine doses. I know it is not easy, keep trying!
I created more neurons, I hope, by running this morning. Still can't find the real estate tax coupons nor the quarterly tax coupons. I going to have to swallow my pride and hope they will send new ones to me.
I forgot to take my medicine on Saturday night and no one was here to remind me so I am sluggish. It is amazing how missing one dose can cause such a reaction.
I saw a mother a few days ago walking with her young daughter while the daughter road her bike with no helmet. While we talked about dogs and other stuff because the family was fairly new to the neighborhood I asked if I could share something with them even if it wasn't any of my business and the mom said yes. So I proceeded to tell them about my head injury and my long journey back. I receive many compliments on my currents status but I also tell them what it took to get here. The mother said the daughter asked if she had to wear her helmet and the mom told her no. I told them bother why it was important to always have a helmet on because it is just a simple thing that can cause you to fall. Don't I know it! Of course they said from now on she would have on her helmet, I hate to say I don't believe them, but I tried.
I don't really know what this blog is about but I felt I needed to write my thoughts because I remembered how to get to this page and post something. That is a big accomplishment for me..I can't count the spelling errors you don't see in this writing because I get the little red line and then I have to figure out what I did wrong and correct it. My anti seizure medicine is kicking in so everything is getting a little blurring so if I have more thoughts or insights I might add them later. Just remember this is for those of you who are trying to rehabilitate your brain from a head injury/concussion whatever you condition may be. It is all a journey and I my be farther along than you write now,but in 2007 I couldn't us either hand, my shoulder and elbow were broken an my thumb was slashed. Let alone I had little ability to put thoughts together. Work hard, find the best you and remember life is a journey, keep walking!
I forgot to take my medicine on Saturday night and no one was here to remind me so I am sluggish. It is amazing how missing one dose can cause such a reaction.
I saw a mother a few days ago walking with her young daughter while the daughter road her bike with no helmet. While we talked about dogs and other stuff because the family was fairly new to the neighborhood I asked if I could share something with them even if it wasn't any of my business and the mom said yes. So I proceeded to tell them about my head injury and my long journey back. I receive many compliments on my currents status but I also tell them what it took to get here. The mother said the daughter asked if she had to wear her helmet and the mom told her no. I told them bother why it was important to always have a helmet on because it is just a simple thing that can cause you to fall. Don't I know it! Of course they said from now on she would have on her helmet, I hate to say I don't believe them, but I tried.
I don't really know what this blog is about but I felt I needed to write my thoughts because I remembered how to get to this page and post something. That is a big accomplishment for me..I can't count the spelling errors you don't see in this writing because I get the little red line and then I have to figure out what I did wrong and correct it. My anti seizure medicine is kicking in so everything is getting a little blurring so if I have more thoughts or insights I might add them later. Just remember this is for those of you who are trying to rehabilitate your brain from a head injury/concussion whatever you condition may be. It is all a journey and I my be farther along than you write now,but in 2007 I couldn't us either hand, my shoulder and elbow were broken an my thumb was slashed. Let alone I had little ability to put thoughts together. Work hard, find the best you and remember life is a journey, keep walking!
Friday, August 23, 2013
Boy I wish I could run the half marathon in October
I want to start running again but when I was in physical therapy twice this summer I was unable to run now it's harder because they've changed my running mechanics and I have to think about how I'm running I can't enjoy a morning run when I am trying to think am I up straight are my legs right and I'm out of breath because I haven't run in so long . there's the Clayton Half Marathon in October but o will end up back in PT if I push to get ready for that. And Darren had the nerve to ask me if I thought I could be ready at the same time he is telling me not to push myself!
I guess I should have put this in my earlier blog but it didn't seem to fit with the story so this will be a short second blog for today. And no I still haven't found those papers!!!!!
I guess I should have put this in my earlier blog but it didn't seem to fit with the story so this will be a short second blog for today. And no I still haven't found those papers!!!!!
Sometimes you can help just one person with a comment
My husband and I went to dinner on Wednesday with his high school classmate and her husband who were in town for a visit. We took them to a restaurant we like for the Spanish Tapas and because they have a small room that is quiet and I can enjoy the conversation easier with less noise. I reserve online and always ask for this room explaining that I have seizures and need the quietest place possible. When we arrived I gave my name and reminded them of my request.
Later, as Rosalie was getting a gift certificate the manager mentioned to her it she rarely meets another adult that has seizures, and when I came in and told why I made the request she was curious. I went back into the restaurant when I heard this and spoke with the manager for awhile as she shared her story and her struggles. I understood all of her struggles and named some of mine that she realized had too. By the time I left I had given her the name of the medicines I take and the ways I navigate the world where noise, light and many other things that can set me off, including windshield wipers. Boy was she surprised because that too was her world and she really had not met anyone who could understand because they didn't have her problem. I recommended earplugs since she worked in such a noisy place ( we had to ask them to turn the music down early for me), she remembered when the music got too loud that evening because she started using her coping skill which was to shake keys and just pace. I told her the earplugs would dampen the noise and sun glasses would help with the light. As for the windshield wipers just wear the earplugs and look out the side window, it's what I do :)
You never know how and simple comment can help someone else, and that is what this blog is all about. Maybe someone will read my journey through life and it will help them.
It took me so long to write another post because I forgot how to get to the sight, and then I couldn't remember how to start a new post! Life is an adventure. Now I have to stop writing because I lost some very important papers that need to be found and soon because a payment needs to be made. I also lost a phone handset, I hope everything I lost is in the same place and that I didn't accidentally throw it all out. I don't know why my husband still trusts me with the bills. Oh well. I will post again when I can remember how and take the time because there is always something that I've done that is because of my imperfect brain, sometimes I blame it on the meds!
Later, as Rosalie was getting a gift certificate the manager mentioned to her it she rarely meets another adult that has seizures, and when I came in and told why I made the request she was curious. I went back into the restaurant when I heard this and spoke with the manager for awhile as she shared her story and her struggles. I understood all of her struggles and named some of mine that she realized had too. By the time I left I had given her the name of the medicines I take and the ways I navigate the world where noise, light and many other things that can set me off, including windshield wipers. Boy was she surprised because that too was her world and she really had not met anyone who could understand because they didn't have her problem. I recommended earplugs since she worked in such a noisy place ( we had to ask them to turn the music down early for me), she remembered when the music got too loud that evening because she started using her coping skill which was to shake keys and just pace. I told her the earplugs would dampen the noise and sun glasses would help with the light. As for the windshield wipers just wear the earplugs and look out the side window, it's what I do :)
You never know how and simple comment can help someone else, and that is what this blog is all about. Maybe someone will read my journey through life and it will help them.
It took me so long to write another post because I forgot how to get to the sight, and then I couldn't remember how to start a new post! Life is an adventure. Now I have to stop writing because I lost some very important papers that need to be found and soon because a payment needs to be made. I also lost a phone handset, I hope everything I lost is in the same place and that I didn't accidentally throw it all out. I don't know why my husband still trusts me with the bills. Oh well. I will post again when I can remember how and take the time because there is always something that I've done that is because of my imperfect brain, sometimes I blame it on the meds!
Friday, August 16, 2013
So, I start this with the intentions of keeping it up at least every two days because there is always something. Well that hasn't happened.
One of the things I want you to know about me is I forget a lot and may not spell my words correctly, I sometimes get insulted when I think people are trying to be sympathetic and say "Oh that is not your injury it happens to everyone", I know they mean well. I think I know when it's my injury and when it's simply old age or menopause or whatever people are trying to blame it on.
Let's see, much has happened since whenever I started this so I will just give you the most recent, that I can remember. Ha Ha! My daughter came back from England last weekend and had to fly straight to Tulane, in New Orleans Louisiana before you ask. After not seeing her most of the summer my husband and I said we were going to meet her there even if it meant only see her for 17 hours. Travelling is hard on me, it causing partial seizures and my balance is already, not quite right. I thank Southwest for letting me board early because if I boarding after people are already on the plane I would just panic because I have to look at the people and see where empty seats are. I know people wonder why this perfectly normal looking person has to board before they do, however, believe me you don't won't to be in my shoes. The stress of the airport may cause a partial seizure. I wear earplugs and noise cancelling headphones, sometimes even my sunglasses. Yes, that was me if you saw this strange looking person on August 11 in NOLA. Actually, I could look like a movie star in disguise getting special treatment! Yeah right on Southwest.
Anyway in NOLA I lost my balance and fell on the sidewalk, got the scraps to prove that one! Just suddenly lost my balance and my hubby didn't see me going down in time to help. Oh well. Our friend's daughter was frightened because she knew I had issues but I don't think she ever expected to see anything. Just can't hide problems from concussions, we LOOK normal. Shaky balance the rest of the day. Had to hold my husband's hand the rest of the day (bonus!) however sometimes I was so wobbly he may have been pulled down too! I was sent to Lauren's room to just wait for them to carry stuff upstairs. This is not my nature. I am the person in the thick of things. I used to carry the boxes up steps, load the dollies, etc. Now I am stuck in an apartment waiting for my assignment. It stunk, and still stinks because it happens all the time.
Okay, today is Friday the week was eventful, I had to argue with the alarm company about a new panel they put in, which was incorrect like I tried to tell them, however it is hard for me to get my point across because sometimes the right words won't come. Mischief manged today and I am proud I was persistent. Hospital tried to say I hadn't paid a bill, I had the records to prove I had paid the bill, they deposited my check and somehow lost the money. There are little victories! Persistence and writing down date, time and names help tremendously when problem solving, goes back to my days of being a manager with a staff of 75 and 600 accounts. If I said that before I.m sorry. (The work part) I think I will end this posting now because my vision has decided to go blurry, too much typing and I'm starting to misspell more than normal!
I'll check in later. Time to walk the dogs.
One of the things I want you to know about me is I forget a lot and may not spell my words correctly, I sometimes get insulted when I think people are trying to be sympathetic and say "Oh that is not your injury it happens to everyone", I know they mean well. I think I know when it's my injury and when it's simply old age or menopause or whatever people are trying to blame it on.
Let's see, much has happened since whenever I started this so I will just give you the most recent, that I can remember. Ha Ha! My daughter came back from England last weekend and had to fly straight to Tulane, in New Orleans Louisiana before you ask. After not seeing her most of the summer my husband and I said we were going to meet her there even if it meant only see her for 17 hours. Travelling is hard on me, it causing partial seizures and my balance is already, not quite right. I thank Southwest for letting me board early because if I boarding after people are already on the plane I would just panic because I have to look at the people and see where empty seats are. I know people wonder why this perfectly normal looking person has to board before they do, however, believe me you don't won't to be in my shoes. The stress of the airport may cause a partial seizure. I wear earplugs and noise cancelling headphones, sometimes even my sunglasses. Yes, that was me if you saw this strange looking person on August 11 in NOLA. Actually, I could look like a movie star in disguise getting special treatment! Yeah right on Southwest.
Anyway in NOLA I lost my balance and fell on the sidewalk, got the scraps to prove that one! Just suddenly lost my balance and my hubby didn't see me going down in time to help. Oh well. Our friend's daughter was frightened because she knew I had issues but I don't think she ever expected to see anything. Just can't hide problems from concussions, we LOOK normal. Shaky balance the rest of the day. Had to hold my husband's hand the rest of the day (bonus!) however sometimes I was so wobbly he may have been pulled down too! I was sent to Lauren's room to just wait for them to carry stuff upstairs. This is not my nature. I am the person in the thick of things. I used to carry the boxes up steps, load the dollies, etc. Now I am stuck in an apartment waiting for my assignment. It stunk, and still stinks because it happens all the time.
Okay, today is Friday the week was eventful, I had to argue with the alarm company about a new panel they put in, which was incorrect like I tried to tell them, however it is hard for me to get my point across because sometimes the right words won't come. Mischief manged today and I am proud I was persistent. Hospital tried to say I hadn't paid a bill, I had the records to prove I had paid the bill, they deposited my check and somehow lost the money. There are little victories! Persistence and writing down date, time and names help tremendously when problem solving, goes back to my days of being a manager with a staff of 75 and 600 accounts. If I said that before I.m sorry. (The work part) I think I will end this posting now because my vision has decided to go blurry, too much typing and I'm starting to misspell more than normal!
I'll check in later. Time to walk the dogs.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Just the beginning
I decided after 7 years to finally share my experiences as a person with a closed head injury. Some days are funny, some are not and some are just how it is. I want people with closed head injuries and those who love them to know life isn't easy sometimes and I wish I had a giant band aid to put on my head so the public would understand my sometimes, unexplainable actions. How is this? I do my best.
In 2007 when I had my bike accident my daughter wanted me to try and journal my journey back to being healthy but I couldn't because my brain wasn't ready to work in sentences.
Quick history: Out for a bike ride to train for a triathlon with my husband and my back tire hits a curb, always rode the trail never happened before. I broke my elbow, collarbone and slammed my head on the road. The impact cracked my helmet. (See, yes I did have one on or I wouldn't be here so I've been told)
Now you know. It's 2013 and I still struggle daily. I couldn't drive for years and I have to take anti-seizure medicine twice a day. I can't even fill my own medicine box because I get the pills confused. Frustrating, but I accept it and my husband fills the boxes for me every week. I wanted to drive but early on when I tried driving I couldn't remember what the red, yellow or green lights stood for as I was coming up to the intersection! I took myself off the road.
This blog will contain current events in my life and some from the past because I don't remember things in order. My family laughs because I might say something from years ago! OK my husband just walked in and I lost my train of thought, so the point I was trying to make is gone.
Thus not quite right! You will hear from me soon when my brain wants to share.
In 2007 when I had my bike accident my daughter wanted me to try and journal my journey back to being healthy but I couldn't because my brain wasn't ready to work in sentences.
Quick history: Out for a bike ride to train for a triathlon with my husband and my back tire hits a curb, always rode the trail never happened before. I broke my elbow, collarbone and slammed my head on the road. The impact cracked my helmet. (See, yes I did have one on or I wouldn't be here so I've been told)
Now you know. It's 2013 and I still struggle daily. I couldn't drive for years and I have to take anti-seizure medicine twice a day. I can't even fill my own medicine box because I get the pills confused. Frustrating, but I accept it and my husband fills the boxes for me every week. I wanted to drive but early on when I tried driving I couldn't remember what the red, yellow or green lights stood for as I was coming up to the intersection! I took myself off the road.
This blog will contain current events in my life and some from the past because I don't remember things in order. My family laughs because I might say something from years ago! OK my husband just walked in and I lost my train of thought, so the point I was trying to make is gone.
Thus not quite right! You will hear from me soon when my brain wants to share.
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